When Loneliness Hits Without Warning | by 王嫏

Episode 2: When Loneliness Suddenly Hits

Loneliness doesn’t always arrive slowly.

Sometimes, it comes all at once.

I remember that night clearly.

After being busy for so long, I finally had some time for myself.
I thought I would relax, maybe call someone, maybe enjoy the moment.

But when I picked up my phone…

I didn’t know who to call.

That moment — it hit me.

A kind of emptiness that I couldn’t explain.
It wasn’t just silence.
It felt like something inside me suddenly collapsed.

I knew right away —
if I didn’t find a way out,
this feeling would grow into something much worse.

So I drove.

Far away from the city.
To empty places.
To quiet roads.
To anywhere that felt… less crowded by people.

I thought maybe nature could wash it away.

But along the way, something strange happened.

Every time I saw someone —
someone running,
someone walking,
someone with another person…

My heart reacted.

I can’t explain it.

It was like every human presence
was quietly reminding me of something I didn’t have.

At one point,
I even thought about stopping the car,
walking up to them,
and asking—

“Can I join you?”

But I didn’t.

I didn’t have the courage.

So I kept driving.

Again and again.
Past people.
Past chances.
Past myself.

And just like that,
I went through another stretch of road…
alone.

To be continued.

第2集。孤獨感襲來的時候，那一種說不出的感覺，我強烈地知道，我必須及時給自己的心靈尋找出口，否則肯定會發展成一場嚴重的心病。

我開車到荒山野嶺、空曠的地方、狹窄的地方，企圖讓大自然來療癒自己的心靈。沿途看到有人在跑步，都會引起心裡一種莫名其妙的感覺；只要是有人的地方，都會牽起心裡一種說不出的觸動，這是心病開始前的一種預兆。

看著別人三兩成群，我多麼想鼓足勇氣下車，去懇求他們讓我加入其中，奈何自己又勇氣不夠。就這樣沿途一次又一次、一次又一次，在激烈的心理鬥爭中，終於獨自又走過了一程，又一程。

（第2集完畢，待續……）

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