My Mania with the “Chi-Rho”. After my burnout, and under the… | by Retired IT-Guy | Aug, 2025

After my burnout, and under the influence of Ritalin, I slipped into mania. A typical symptom of psychosis is seeing connections everywhere — even where there are none. That’s exactly what happened to me.

During my burnout I became deeply interested in “energies.” Today, people might call it the biofield or the electromagnetic heart field. Sometimes I jokingly refer to it as my “psychological bubble.”

The heart field is often illustrated like this:

I started making my own drawings. To me, it looked more like a perfectly round “bubble”:

Over time, I began to think about “balanced energies” — how one can approach others with good vibes. That led to another drawing:

And this was the point where the mania began. In this balanced form I suddenly saw the ancient Christian monogram Chi-Rho. To me, it felt like a revelation:

That supposed connection became the spark for a long manic phase, which eventually ended in psychosis.

Yet it was also a turning point. My interest in energies and vibes remains — only now without losing myself in them. I still find the research at heartmath.org, which studies the heart field and coherence, fascinating.

In the end, the “field is flexible.” Everyone can choose how they present themselves. Personally, I always try to signal calm and openness. Often, that alone is enough to create a pleasant atmosphere.