Inner Peace that Flattens My Emotions | by Dr. Jason Hung | Clear Yo Mind | Sep, 2025

In my 20s, my emotions were very explicit. When I was elated, I would express my happiness and gratitude through my behavioural expressions. Likewise, when I was down, I would sympathise with my own encounters, spend a lot of time grieving, and reflect on what I had been through.
My past decade of 20s was always filled with emotions and sentiments. I reckon being a sufferer of social anxiety disorder made me sensitive, vulnerable and, therefore, emotionally rich. I liked to derive and collect different emotions internally. Being emotionally rich sounded like evidence that proved I was alive. And before my social anxiety disorder was cured, I had a raft of capacity to grieve, feel and digest.
At 30, when my social anxiety disorder has largely been cured, I can sense both the subtle and notable differences in my emotional management and behavioural expression. When my social anxiety disorder has been cured, I no longer regularly get “hurt” when exposed to the public. I have learnt to embrace my surroundings and picked up how to act in public and socialise with people naturally and appropriately. The more socially appropriate I have become, the less socially awkward I have appeared and, therefore, the less likely I have been to be disliked. Overall, after spending half of my life battling with social anxiety disorder, I have finally been able to immerse myself in inner peace.
I thought I would be over the moon once my social anxiety disorder was cured. The fact is, when my social anxiety has come under control, the subsequent development of inner peace has stabilised my emotions and feelings. I have not been over the moon when feeling immensely grateful, nor have I been utterly deflated when setbacks hit me.
My emotions and feelings have been flattened.
I am no longer too high or too low, and this helps me stay calm. I feel I have control over more situations and encounters internally and publicly. I have also learnt that I do not need to continually build my capacity for vulnerability and resilience to confront “getting hurt”. When inner peace comes, I do not need to overthink or over-worry, because I am fortunate to have finally reached a stage where my fight-or-flight response is slowly being deactivated.
Every day is not a battle anymore. So I do not need to be sympathetic just to consistently justify why God puts me in an endless challenge. Living no longer feels like a task to complete. Instead, it makes me feel human and allows me to make connections with the people, encounters and circumstances around me. And this renders my life to start making sense.
It’s strange to start living and being humanised at the age of 30. But guess what, it’s a privilege to have an opportunity to live and be humanised in our lives — especially when such an opportunity is acquired rather than entitled.