I Don’t know if I Should talk to him. | by Kamya | Sep, 2025

It’s been a while since he’s been putting in some efforts, but I just keep running away. He’s too much for me — way out of my league. Even if he comes just a little close, my heart races, and my mind screams: “Run away… far away.”

He seems perfect — tall, handsome, confident, great at his job, charming.

And me? I mean I love myself, but I don’t find anything extraordinary. I don’t think I look good — which is okay, I’m fine with how I look — but I honestly have no idea what I’m doing with my life. I have no clue where this is going, but I guess I’ll figure it out.

Me to Me (the pro at overthinking) :
“Then why don’t you just go and talk to him? He won’t eat you! And, come on, he’s a vegetarian. What are you even thinking? Just go. He wants to talk to you too. You both like looking at each other… so much.

Yeah, we look at each other, but maybe he looks at other girls the same way, who knows. Does it even matter? There are other guys you notice too, but you don’t feel the same about them like you do about him.

I don’t know… he’s so tall and I’m so small — okay, maybe not that small — but still, he’s too much. And it’s not like I’m doing anything, like cheating on a boyfriend or having an affair — but I don’t have the guts to talk to him.

Wait… I think I know my problem. I’m waiting to become someone “better” first. The main reason I don’t talk to people isn’t that I’m shy — it’s that I don’t feel I’m at their level. I want to achieve something first, then maybe I’ll feel worthy of talking to them. That’s it. That’s my excuse.

Also, I’m so used to being single now that I don’t feel like going after anything. But see you don’t need to get into relationships or dating. Just a small talk… just to see what happens, okay?

Okay… I’ll try. Maybe I’ll just say hello to him. At least I won’t regret it later.”

I’m so embarrassed to even write this, but since I don’t have many readers, I guess it doesn’t matter. It does feel better to write things out.