How Losing Sleep Made Me Resent Someone I Barely Know | by florence | Jul, 2025
What happens when you’re too tired to speak up but too annoyed to stay quiet?
I am a light sleeper. I can be awakened just by someone calling my name once. I can only sleep comfortably when my room is completely silent. Every small action can wake me up — for example, if someone opens my door and it creaks, or suddenly turns on the light, I immediately wake up. No matter how small the sound is, I wake up instantly.
Because of these habits, having a roommate became a real challenge for me. Long story short, I’m a homebody, while my roommate is someone who absolutely loves going out — like, all the time. She always comes back super late. As a light sleeper, I’m really disturbed by her habits. She often comes back around 12 a.m. or even 1 a.m., right when I’m in deep sleep. When she returns, the sound of the door wakes me up.
In that moment, I suddenly wake up feeling extremely annoyed, but I keep my eyes closed and pretend to be asleep. While pretending to sleep, I curse her so many times in my head. I tell myself that I hate her. I even hope something bad happens to her — just enough to make her stop coming home late and disturbing my sleep. I feel very angry because my sleep is disrupted, and I can’t fall back asleep. My sleeping schedule becomes a mess. I wake up the next day in a terrible mood.
But the next day, I also feel guilty. I feel terrible for cursing her and wishing something bad would happen to her. I know it’s cruel. I feel like a bad person, and that makes me feel even worse. Still, I don’t say sorry to her. Once again, I pretend like nothing happened. She keeps coming home late, and to be honest, I still curse her again and again in silence.
Maybe you’re wondering why I don’t just talk to my roommate. The truth is, I don’t really know either. I’m not close to her, and I try to act like I don’t care about what she does. But honestly, my life lately feels so off because of this situation.
In the end, don’t be like me. I know I’m being a bad person. Maybe if you have a problem with someone, just talk to them. It would probably be much easier. Really.
