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Kuşlar 🦢 benden erken uyanmıştı yine. Oysa ben sabah namazına kalkmayı “bir kahramanlık sahnesi” gibi hayal ederdim. O sabah da, battaniyeyi üzerimden atarken içimden bir ses “Biraz daha yat, Allah affeder” diyordu; ama sonra dedem’in sesi yankılandı kulağımda:

“Oğlum,

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A Memoir of Love, Loss, and Silent Acceptance

Ever since you left, my life has felt hollow – as if all meaning drained out of every breath.

There are still

A few days ago, a neighbourhood cat brought four tiny white kittens to our house and kept them under our bed.

She made herself at home, resting, feeding and moving in and out like she belonged here.

We didn’t mind.

A few weeks ago, I wished something bad for myself. In the back of my mind, I was quietly saying that I wanted something I called “death.” But it wasn’t nothing – it wasn’t meaningless. It was because there was